{Why I'm scared to have a 2nd baby}

Let me preface this by saying that I absolutely loved being pregnant. Like every single second of it. Even the nausea. It was probably the only time I  have ever welcomed nausea because, well, it meant that I was pregnant. And every mother I ever talked to told me that nausea meant the baby was healthy.

I had a fairly healthy pregnancy. Then around 27/28 weeks my doctor realized my belly was measuring bigger and my uterus was measuring higher than it should have been. So he sent me for a sonogram. And just as he suspected...my amniotic fluids were measuring high. In medical terms I was borderline Polyhydramnios. 

Polyhydramnios (polyhydramnion, hydramnios, polyhydramnios) is a medical condition describing an excess of amniotic fluid in the amniotic sac. It is seen in about 1% of pregnancies,[1][2][3]. It is typically diagnosed when the amniotic fluid index (AFI) is greater than 24 cm

My fluids were at a 21.5 which put me in that borderline range. What did this mean? That my doctor would have to monitor my amniotic fluids by way of a sonogram and NST {Non Stress Test} every week until my levels showed to level. {which they never did} When I was initially told all this I kind of freaked. If my fluids continued to increase the risks were almost too much to bear...

Premature rupture of the membranes
Placental abruption
Preterm labor and delivery
Growth restriction
C-section delivery
Postpartum hemorrhage

A little hard to swallow, right? I knew the only way I was going to get through this was by prayer and divine intervention from God! So, I asked for prayer from my friends and family. And it must have worked...because I never really worried anymore and my levels never increased. They didn't decrease either, but not increasing was more important. Plus, I had the most active little boy growing inside of me that reminded me daily that everything was fine and God was in control. God sent this peace over me and I knew that it was all going to be okay. Plus, it was kind of nice getting to see my sweet boy on sonogram every single week.
Besides the fluid levels, the rest of my pregnancy was pretty close to perfect. Until Tuesday, May 25th. The day I delivered Mason. My doctor sent me over to be induced, but I was already in labor. And my blood pressure spiked. At 40w4d I developed toxemia. Thankfully, everything went just fine {besides the devil drug - magnesium sulfate}.
So now I have those two things on my chart - Borderline Polyhydramnios and Toxemia.

And now that it's all over and I look back on it...those two things terrify the heck out of me if we were ever to get pregnant again. Yes, I know that God is in control, just being honest here. I'm scared! We were so blessed the first time around that these two things did not develop into anything more.
Sonogram of Mason at the time I learned about the fluids

My sweet/healthy boy now


  1. This is SO weird! I am sitting here with my sister and niece reading this post...and my sister had that! My niece has hydrocephelus and my poor sister was in the hospital for 2 weeks because to top it off, she had a blood clot in her leg. I agree with you on being scared, there is so many things that can go wrong that I am so nervous!! So is baby #2 going to happen?!

  2. I am so glad everything worked out for you in your 1st pregnancy and I hope that the 2nd whenever that may be turns out just as perfect...

    please have more babies because that kid of yours is BEYOND adorable!


  3. That magnesium really is the devil drug! No fun at all!

  4. Ah I feel the same way. I feel like everything was so perfect with Hayes, that I would be tempting fate to try again! I also don't want to take away from any of Hayes's time with me. I already have to go to work all day, I couldn't imagine if he then had to share me in the evenings. I know people do it all the time, and good for them, but I just don't think I could do it to him.

  5. Your son is adorable first off!!! and that's a crazy story with 1% chance of it. But you guys made :) Newest follower ;)

  6. That sounds horribly scary!! I have to agree with the above comments though, your boys way too gorgeous, you've gotta make more! :) Have you spoken to your doc' about the chances of those things happening again?? Your def' right, it's all in Gods hands :)

  7. Wow about that mag tox. I had only ever read about that in nursing school! How lucky that everything went as smoothly as it possibly could with Mason. I totally understand your fear about baby number two.

    Ultimately between you, your husband, your doctor, and God, you can feel at peace making a decision about baby number two. xoxo!

  8. Agreed! Mag sulfate is the devil. I was on it for 4 days prior to teale's birth and one day after I think.

    Im so glad nothimg bad happened to you and Mase. I don't blame you for being scared. <3


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