{A letter to my sweet two and a half year old}

{Written on 01/08/13}

My Dear, Sweet Mason,

Last night I laid in bed with you as I do almost every night. Here lately you love to be rubbed on our back or your cheek, rather than having your back patted. So, I was rubbing your sweet little cheek and something hit me like a ton of bricks. As I was tracing your cheek I thought about how I never want to forget a single centimeter of your sweet face as it is right now. I never want to forget anything you tell me or the stories you come up with. Or how blessed I was to be lying there with you. You are growing too incredibly fast and I know it's just a matter of time before you're twelve and kicking me out of your bed. {I'd like to think that won't happen, but ya know}. So tonight and every day forward I am going to soak it all in a little deeper, hold you a little tighter and pray a little harder.

Your Daddy and I dreamed about you for ten plus years. And here you are. And better, cuter, sweeter, smarter than anything we could have ever dreamed. And I love you more than I could have ever imagined. What you do to my heart sweet love, it's indescribable. You are amazing, Mason Lane. You have such a sweet soul and a compassionate little heart. I am so in love with you.

Last night I asked you what makes your heart happy. You said, "My cop car, my puppy and blankie, Mommy and Daddy." And then in the sweetest little voice you say, "What makes your heart happy Mommy?" My eyes welled with tears. You've never asked me before. I think it's mostly because I usually start with "Mason do you now that you make my heart so happy." So, back to your question, I say to you, "You and Daddy." And then you tell me, "Well, my heart is sad." I asked you why and you said because you needed your Daddy. I call him in there and you tell him, "Daddy I forgot to give you more kisses" and you kissed him and said your goodnights again. And Bam! Happy heart again. 

I hope that Mommy and Daddy always make your heart happy. And I hope more than anything you know how deeply we love you.

All your Mama's love.